Tuesday 7th February 2012
At my house we’re just getting over the flu. I took my SON yesterday to have his tongue tie cut yesterday(I like saying my son smile). He cried a lot. When he fell asleep I didn’t go to sleep I decided to stay up and clean the kitchen, do Laundry. What’s wrong with that I hear you ask? Well it was 2 am . By the time I got down to scrubbing the kitchen floor baby woke up and it was 5am.
After diapering and feeding him I fell asleep in what felt like 5 minutes. The next I know my 3 and 5 year old come in to my room wanting breakfast and home-school lessons to start. My 11 year old ,I was short with today ,when I didn’t really need to.We had a heart to heart afterwards.
The truth is right now, today I feel overwhelmed, I feel tired, I feel frustrated, I feel discouraged. It occurred to me that there might be someone out there that can benefit from me speaking up.
Between these pages of beautiful prose and my edited you tube videos its easy to think I have it all together well I do not. I am only human and all that entails
Its winter and I have a habit of baking up a storm and having little snacks. (say sugar crash and potential weight gain)
So with the wisdom God endowed me with, I have a plan: Menu plan again,More green smoothies, bake one goodie for Sabbath only, no snacking, Drink more water and restart exercising ,Go outside get some sunshine( even in the snow) For those of you who have been following my blog will know from my weigh in Tuesday. I felt I was at my best, when I was doing these things. My energy levels were up and I was so happy. The other thing is I need to find time to pray, I miss doing that consistently. I can’t do this in my own strength anymore. I’ll let you know in a future post if this works.
Please pray for me. If you have a mom or close friend you can lean on and cannot identify with the tiredness I am talking about then cherish that person.
I am living my dream and this is only for a season. I am determined to hear my heavenly Father say above any human lips, “Well done my good and faithful servant”.
Tomorrow is a new day